Good morning reader, I told you that I would make a commitment to you, and write everyday.
So you woke up this morning GOOD, that means it is one day closer to your dreams. So as I sent in my back yard, preparing for my morning yoga and pool work out, I always look at the hollywood hill from my backyard. Why? because seeing that makes me realizes everyday that it is possible, sometimes I drive out there to look at the big houses and the nice cars just so I can see that these are things that I can obtain. What people do not understand is that everyone has the same 24 hours in a day. The people that are at a high level in the world they are not cut from a different cloth, they just mastered consistence. So I have a doctors appointment tomorrow, I know what he is gonna telll me, and I am prepared for the worst, you have to see both good and bad things before they happen. It helps you take the blows. When things are going good, you cant get to happy, when bad things are happening, you cant get to sad. Look at Tom
Brady during a football game. If he scores he pumps his fist. and walks to the sideline. If he throws a interception, he pumps his fist in angry and walks to the sideline. Thats what you have to do in life, you can never be to happy or to sad. If you can master your emotions, you will go so much farther in life. I knew I had a hernia before I even walked into the doctors office, knowing this info helped me with the "bad news". Notice I put a quotes around bad news, that is because nothing is truly bad, it is all about how you think about it. I can look at this as o my god, this is heartbreak it is so sad. But who the hell am I to complain. Life will throw some bullshit your way and guess what? your gonna have to deal with it. Can I give up on my dream, Yes, would it be easy to say I will just work to pay of my student debts like most of americans, yes. The option to give up will always be there. But you have to ask yourself, if you give up can you live with yourself. After hurting my knee, I got to college and said my football days are over, I could not even look at myself in the mirror, I was being a punk. I was scared that everyone who eever said I couldnt comeback was right. I need you to learn this the easy way and not the hardway as did I. Think of what you want in life, if you could make your own life, how would it be. Ok, good, now go write it down somewhere, all of my gaols and dreams are in my notes on my phone, I add to them ever so often when I see something or am told that I cant do something. What you need to understand is that YOUR DREAM is just that YOUR DREAM, it was not given to your mom, dad, brother, girlfriend, boyfriend, who ever it maybe, it was not given to them. The universe gave you the thought that becoming the next Bill Gates is possible, whatever it may be. It is your dream, and you have to love it, you have to care for it, it is your child, your baby. So when I say I am going to make it to the NFL Hall of Fame, of course there are people who think other wise. And there is always the question of well "what if" it dose not happen, well what if it does. You have to believe it. Not anyone else, just you. My father and I were watching tv, I said I wonder if I learned to high jump, how high could I jump, he said jumping isnt your thing, I put that on my list of wrong things that have been said to me, I also put on my short term goal list for the summer to up my vertical. Trust me, I accomplished that, I came home, in good shape, but once I got to work with my Uncle he told me, that once I am ready I would be doing workouts with a 40 pound weight vest on, thinking I am big shit, I tried it our first work out, I couldnt even pick myself up, a week before going to the doctor, I did a whole workout, no break with that weighted vest on. When on your journey you must not seek to see the big picture manifested, but rather the progress of your daily work. Because life is not decided on one day where you wake up and if you do good today boom your dreams and everything is true. No, I worked out 6 days a week with my uncle, and everything we did, were in sets of 100, Why? because thats a big fucking number, and if you have big dreams then you are going to have to push yourself past what you think your body can handle. Everyday when doing 100, it hit a wall where I had to ask myself is it worth it, is it even possible, then I thought of people like Robert Woods, Dion Bailey, and I would say to myself, it is possible because we both have the same 24 hours in a day.So like I said, I have a pool workout, I probaly wont stop until  I am about to drown. Life is easy, all you have to do is work hard. Thats funny. But serouisly, everyone wants a fast way to get rich, they want a fast way to get buff, or fast, or skinny. I hate that shit. Sorry for my launge but What the fuck. What happened to just good old hard work. You know I have a theory, it called the Chip-a-away theory. Imagine your dream is a rock, and everyday you have to chip at it, you chip when you feel great, you chip when you are sick, you chip when you are sad,m when you are hungry, you have to keep chipping, because one day you wont be able to chip anymore, then you will stand back tired, worn down, and you will look at what you have made. You literally control your life, your not where you are because someone did you wrong, you are here because of you chipping habits. So today I will kill myself in this ppol, then do my school work, then yoga, then my day goes from there. Also I need you to understand that you need an outlet, wheter it be weed, cartoons, or just sitting outside, you need something that helps your mind wander, you need to spend more time alone than with other people. Why? because who is gonna be in the casket with you? That's why. You have to create yourself, down to what you wear, to the girls you like, to the people you habg out with. I have cut off some very very close people in my life because I felt that they were not taking the right steps to better themselves. Birds of a feather flock together, I will sit all alone than hang out woth someone who is headed down the wrong path, because the energy you put out into the universe, thats what you will get. You can not let negative energy leave your mouth. Keep it in your mind, when someone ask how are you doing just say, "I cant complain" that shows the universe no matter how bad or good thigns are at that moment that you understand the reasons behind it all. So yea, I am going to see a doctor tomorrow who is going to tell me that I need surgery, that recover will be painful and slow, big fucking deal, boo whoo, I look at this as a time to rebuild. The universe just wants to see if I really want this, mark my words, since I am staying positive threw this, the universe will open a door that I wasn't even expecting. I have to go and put in this work. I am sorry for the spelling errors today, but I am going to leave you with this, "Cry,cry as much as you can, get all of the pain and hurt, out of your body, everyday. There are things that you can not change, so cry, let it go. Let it go, and understand that you control your life every moment you are breathing. If you want something go get it, whether it be a girl, car, dream, anything you want make it yours.
Last but not least for my young readers, please understand that you control someone else life right now. I could give a damn if I lived in a roach motel apartment, as long a the child that I haven't had and my unwed wife are comfortable. Your a living a legacy, everyone is born they work they die, all it take is for one person to change everything. So fuck the club, hit these books, so when your son or daughter is born, they are worth 8 million coming into this world, that is success, successes is not cars, clothes, no that is rewards of success, successes to me is working my ass off so I can one inspire someone near me to do the same, then they inspire someone, then who they inspired inspires someone, now that cycle continues, and it happened all because of you, when you die how many people do you want at your funereal, because if it is less than a million people at mine,  then I did not touch enough people, therefore my life was a failure.
Work hard, Stay positive, and stay quiet.